HOW I REVERSED MY NEGATIVE MIND & THE PROGRAMMED MENTALITY OF, “I CAN’T”
Maybe she’s just born with it??? … Or maybe, she worked really, really, really fucking hard to get there!
Get out of that pattern of self judgement and go do something that you’ve always wanted to do but have been too nervous, afraid, or uncomfortable to try! I promise you, the worst thing that will happen is you’ll find out for the first time in your life what it feels like to experience something new and see where that road takes you!
When I first started building Happimethod, I was honestly in a very unhappy space in my head. The only thing I had was a glimpse of an idea of the feeling I wanted to create in my own life and in the lives of others, it was my one way of flushing out the pain and spreading light when I felt like I was drowning in darkness.
For a large portion of my life I was surrounded by people that projected their own negative programming onto the very essence of my innocence and as it rooted down deep into my energy field growing heavier as the years passed, it would continue to eat away at my psyche until I became a shell of who I once was.
My light was almost out…. Do you know what I’m talking about? Have you ever felt like that?
If you’re screaming, “Yes Aria, I feel just like that! What the hell is wrong with me and what the flip can I do about it?” I’m here to tell you that there is NOTHING wrong with you, but you HAVE to help yourself. Trust me on this one, there is no other way out… not really.
I’ve made all the wrong decisions, dove deep into a state of depression, been down to my last dollar broke, tortured by chronic anxiety that froze my soul with the kind of paralyzing fear I had no choice but to overcome if I ever wanted to progress.
My head was spinning and I was at the point of truly believing that there was seriously something… No, EVERYTHING wrong with me! That no matter how hard I tried I must be completely incapable of creating the life I wanted on this earth, and that I’d rather just go back to sleep so I could dream my life was not this reality where I kept sinking further and further down into the abyss.
Then one day it hit me, I became aware that even though I had convinced myself that I’d been trying to figure out who I was and how to get where I thought I wanted to be, this whole time I was actually just running from everything I thought I couldn’t do, setting up obstacles to sabotage myself before I could seriously fail at anything.
I realized I had run so far from the heart of who I really was I had unintentionally lost myself in a labyrinth my own mind had built around me. I didn’t know how, but at that moment I was determined to find my way back to ME and free myself from the ingrained programming of a mentality that says, “I CAN’T…. WHO I AM ISN’T GOOD ENOUGH… THEY JUST DON’T GET ME… I’LL NEVER BE ABLE TO DO THAT!”
In the process of my awakening I constantly questioned everything, almost too afraid to trust that I would make the right decisions, but then I did it anyway. I made the decision to keep going, to go through and release the emotions instead of bottling it up and acting like, “I was good.” when I clearly wasn’t. It was extremely difficult, but I decided to believe in myself when no one else understood my vision or thought Happimethod would ever mean anything to anyone. It didn’t matter anymore what they were all mumbling, because Happimethod was something to me already. It was the one place that no matter what chaos was happening in my life, I could go to in my head and hear my own voice again, constantly reminding myself that the sun still shines behind the clouds.
Little did I know, that all the afflictions of my life were exactly what it would take to resurrect the part of myself patiently waiting for me to rediscover it over the course of who knows how many lifetimes. I had finally found my strength, after all this time she had come back to life! She knew exactly who she was and what she was willing to accept in her universe, no longer would she be silenced by the cruel words spilling from the lips of those who were too blinded by their own ignorance to see her beautiful soul.
So you see my HapPi HuManS, I share this truth with you because I need you to know that you can absolutely do anything you THINK you can, you just have to take one step outside the box they built around you. It may not be your fault you’re trapped inside, but it is your sole responsibility to see your way out! No one else can make you see it, playing the victim in this game will only keep you looping through the same level.
Today, try letting go. Open your mind and your heart to receiving what your soul already knows is true. Don’t be hard on yourself if you fall back into old ways and mindsets every now and then, simply recognize it, readjust your frequency, and move forward on this grand adventure!
Keep your focus on creating your own world inside a frequency of LOVE, anything that vibrates lower than that frequency doesn’t deserve to take up one ounce of space inside your head.
Elevation and Love,